Proverbs 3: 5-6
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take”
This is a scripture that I can recite without looking at, but I just got the understanding of it today. There is a huge difference between knowing and understanding something.
Today, God revealed to me that I didn’t trust him like I use to. It hurt when he said it, but it’s true. This time last year was the time that God told me to quit my job. Even though I was afraid, I did it anyway. I trusted Him.
If I’m honest over time, my trust has become depended upon my family, my business, the amount of money I had my account, and other people’s opinions.
I wasn’t going to God like I use to because I thought I had it all figured out. To be honest I thought I would be a littler further than I am by now. Business booming, bank account stacked, modeling career flourishing and the rest would be history.
That’s not where I am though. My business is slow, my bank account is at just enough to get by and, I’m still looking for the right modeling agency. My health is up and down with this ulcerative colitis. I looked over my life and was like dang. I was looking through the lens of discontentment.
“God, I did what you told me to do, why am I still here? I’ve been faithful (so I thought) why does it feel like I’m going through the same test every month?”
Having an honest talk with God this morning he revealed to me that I don’t trust him like I use to, I’ve been putting my trust in all the wrong things lately and that’s why I keep going through the same tests. My hope was in everything else instead of him. I was being obedient to only half of what he said. So, I kept getting the same test because I wasn’t passing it. Ouch!
Then I reread Proverbs 3:5-6 and I did the soap method because I wanted to really break this scripture down. I’m going to share the process with you.
S- (Scripture) “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take”
0 (Observation) God is telling me to not depend on what I can understand; everything is dependent upon him. Seeking him will show me the way to go.
A (Application) I must trust God for my next steps in my health, business, and my modeling career. I must trust that he will provide for me while my business is slow. I must seek him before I do anything in my business or before applying to a model agency because he will show me what path to take. I must trust God for my healing of ulcerative colitis even on my worst days.
P (Prayer) Dear God, I pray that the seed of this word falls onto the good soil in my heart, so that it will take root and produce much fruit. God, I thank you that I don’t have to worry, and I can trust you to provide for me. I thankyou that you are connecting me with the right people and that my business will grow in just the right timing. God, I thankyou that I am getting connected to the right modeling agency at just the right timing. I thank you that you are my healer and that you are healing me of ulcerative colitis even though I can’t see it yet. Even on my worse days like today, you still care. I thank you that I don’t have to depend on my own understanding about any of the things I mentioned because I can trust in your will and your perfect timing. Forgive me for trying to do things in my own strength instead of seeking you for wisdom. Today is a fresh start of trust for me. Holy Spirit, give me the power to trust in what the Word says and not in what I see in front of me. Amen
I pray my transparency helps you on your journey. Trust in God and not in what you see in front of you. Take this scripture and let God speak to you about what your trust is in and how you can put it in Him.