Being Lead instead of Going Ahead

Dear God,

I wanna know! I want to know about all the things you have for me. Where will I be in 10, 20, 30 years? Will I still be alive? Who will I marry? How many kids will I have? Will I be walking in my purpose? Who will I impact? Will I ever get past the pain? I get so impatient at times and feel like I need to help you out. I feel like you’re moving too slow for me, and that's exactly where I mess up. I always fall into going ahead of you instead of being led by you. I get impatient. This has thrown me off course so many times and I’m not even sure why I still do it. God, will you teach me to be patient in ALL things? Will you teach me to wait for your best and not what I think is best for me? Teach me to be lead by you instead of going ahead of you. Tomorrow starts a new month. A fresh start. I want a heart change. I want to look more like you than I ever have. Teach me to be as patient with you as you are with me. I want to be all you’ve called me to be and not miss out on anything you’ve planned because I got impatient.  

I love you and thankyou for being patient with me!